Sounds

Well,
Starting off , it seems and I also thought so, that I'm gonna talk about something different and something exciting today, but I don't know, maybe its my alarming solitude that have changed my attention towards lively thoughts. There are some folks who love alienation but to be frank, there are only "some" and i am not a part of that crowd, and maybe that is the reason World is a great place to live because we crave the need of being surrounded by people, whether we like'em or not.

If you don't know for sure, that you are a solitary kinda person, don't accept the challenge to be alone or try not to create any circumstance, because that is the point when you start listening something you don't want to -- "Sounds of Silence". You'll be like Hannibal Lecter trapped with his mouth concealed but you'll be more like "non-psychopath" types.

It is well said that an empty mind is "Party Place" for devilish thoughts. Yup I have paraphrased it, but it true. It will lead you to one of the most disturbing thoughts you could ever had. If it won't, you are almost like Buddha.

These are the moments when a man realizes the power of association. No No, "need of association". People with people lighten up each other with thoughts, negative or positive, let it be but they have something real to think about. So I think it is very important to cherish or comprehend the importance of other people in our lives. They may be our friends or foes but they are hear to keep ourselves engaged in things that are real and worthy to think about. Basically they are here to prevent our time getting wasted on things that don't even exist.

So the bottom line is, if you aren't or don't want to be a sociopath, Make some friends. Be alive, because it is worth. Just think, your presence , just a mere presence can alter someone's time-being-spent, or you could be on the recieving end and having your time-well-spent.

- Shivam

Colors

When I first heard the word, I instantly looked at my feet. Why? Well, because I have been wearing Black sock on right and white on left. What a contrast!!!

But why I have chosen only these two extreme contrasting colors. There are so many colors in this whole world. Actually I know only 7 ( VIBGYOR ) , but over the years, women of the worlds have defined so many different colors from these 7 basic colors. Its like some kind of Prism, which have divided these colors in several hundred of other colors. Back to me and my choice of 'Black and White'. There might me 2 reason , firstly, which is very practical an logical, I have only black pair and white pair of socks and i cant find the correct pair so I wore them at random. Secondly, In my subconscious mind I have been so damn distinctive and dark that I see everything either Black or White, Good or Bad, True or False. Maybe there is no Grey area in my justification of thoughts.

Imagine a world without colors. I bet you would have imagined everything in Black and White, like the old movies. Well if you imagined something, without colors it would be so boring. Does that means colors add the entertainment factor? No. Colors add meaning to something which should represent your thoughts or creation. That is the reason why different countries have different flags made up of very distinctive colors. Colors Represent Something.

For me that “Something” is the flavors of life. That sock thing must have represented my current state of mind, but I don't want to be biased in my writing. Remember when you are in Love, you like everything in Red. When you are sad , Everything Black. When you are happy, Everything bright.

Colors carry way too much importance in our lives. My advice is, don't miss them. Each and every person in your life is the reason for some color. The one you like or the one you hate, but keep every color with you. If you won't, you will miss a lot of fun. Without colors our lives will be just BLACK & WHITE, just like my feet. :)

- Shivam.

DIPAWALI

May this Dipawali will bring lights to each and everyone's life.

Faicess

Confused!!!!
;) today after a looooooooonnnnng time I am going to talk about failures in life.
Starts depressing huh!
How do we define failure. Its a negative emotion we get when we don't achieve anything physically or emotionally or even both ways. But have we tracked failure to its root. Nop.... What I think first time when someone would have used failure (it was not Shakespeare, I hope) it may be someone have give a name to a situation which is not resulting as he wants. Right!
Now what is success, success according to me is not the end product. It is the pleasure you get when you do something good for selfish purpose. Blunt huh!!!
And converting a failure to success is very easy. Just remove the word failure from your dictionary. Enjoyment is the biggest success we get when we do something. Have you seen someone who always spoils every mood just because of focusing on end product which he is anyways not going to get and in turn spoil everybody's fun. THAT is failure.
Just be on the moment. Enjoy. And people will wonder why you are so stable and they will always be jealous of your happiness until they themselves discover what you are doing.
Only this for now. C'ya

Insomnia

Why people cannot sleep! Sometimes they are very tired of their work and responsibilities but still when the lie on bed they are not at peace. They try even harder by popping pills and straining their eyes but the fluid inside their head is way too messed up. Its like fucking werewolf in the fucking full moon.

I think I described my condition just above. Well I can't sleep. I know the reason but still I am not doing anything to make myself better. I am getting panic attacks everyday because of my anxiety and I know how to be stable but when I am that anxious, the after effect of that leaves me nowhere but at square one. I know how I could avoid this anxiety disorder of mine but some how, maybe cuz of my laziness , I am not doing anything.

I am weak. I am messed up inside. But no one will understand me, except for one but I continuously used my personality to piss that person off. And now I know that my perception to that person have changed. I am not the same to that person as I was before. I am so messed up ryt now. And because of that I can't deserve the quiet night to sleep.

When I was little, my mom take my head on to her lap an tell me that I can sleep on her lap and when I will wake up, all my troubles will go away. I still remember that the magic happened every time. I doesn't happen now. Maybe cuz I don't have someone's lap to sleep my troubles away or maybe my thought process is so fucked up that I could never get the peace I deserve.

A very disturbing stuff to think abt people..
C'ya.
SHIVAM

Why so serious

Well it was a fine morning and I was stuck at the door or the jam packed bus (God bless BMTC). I literally don't have an inch to expand my diaphragm an catch a deep breath. I was collecting my ticket and change from the bus conductor when suddenly someone poked me on my shoulder. After managing to move around in that bus I got a look at the person who poked me. He was tall man , formally dressed but looked very frustrated. He shouted on me that whether I will move back to give him space to get off the bus or not. When he shouted, for a moment I was about to lose my temper coz I had a surgery a few weeks back and it was challenging enough for me to tak a bus ride when it was jam packed and above all a stranger shouting on me!!! Very hard to resist.

Suddenly I realized that he doesn't know my condition but I certainly do know his. How??
Because he can't see where is the pain in my body but I do know when I first took a glance on him. He is frustrated and want to get off the bus when its running at 50kmph. Fuck!! Then I sarcastically said that " could you please wait for a sec, an if you want to jump from a running bus you have to wait for that also cuz I don't have any room here." Everyone laughed and he felt weird but his frustrated face looks good then because he realized how rude he was to a complete stranger.

Then I thought why he was so messed up on the start of his day. Maybe because of his wife/roomies/parents or maybe he is so fed up of his work and he wants to get over with it ASAP. But this won't help at all.

People are now so little of empathy because of workload they are not supposed to take. They have their frustrations and they take that out on anyone they find.

Have a Lil fun. Go out for a week. Go to Goa . relax, enjoy, rejuvenate an then come back to work. It will not only take some stress off your shoulder, but also allows you to think clearly.

Have a good day.